Today started off as a nice day masha’Allah. We went to our local masjid as it was my turn to give a talk. The sisters were lovely and I met up with a sister I hadn’t seen in 2 years. The sun was shining and we returned home. The afternoon took a turn though and it was an afternoon and evening of pure and utter STRESS.
You know when you have one of those days where the baby doesn’t stop crying, there is loads to do, things haven’t gone to ‘plan’, your head is banging – ready to explode, and your children seem to be stuck to you with permanent super glue. Well, I had one of those days.
During all of this, I was having an online conversation with a sister in South Africa about an article I need to write for SISTERS Magazine. This sister is also homeschooling and I asked her: “Tell me why I’m homeschooling again, when I could send my kids to school and spend the day reading Qu’ran etc.” She sent me a beautiful reply back which I copied in order to paste here, but my computer restarted itself and I lost it. But basically she said: “Because we love our children so much and want to see the wonderful look in their eyes when they discover and learn something new.” She also added, “And also because we probably wouldn’t spend our time reading Qu’ran etc if our kids were in school, just like those mums whose kids are in school don’t!”
Well, that put me in my place and made me smile through all the madness of my screaming baby and dd who was irritating her baby brother. Am I heading towards a burnout? I don’t know. But what I do know is this…tomorrow I am insha’Allah going out to Streatham Common to allow for my heart to see some greenery and for my lungs to breathe in some less polluted air, for R to run free and to just take a ‘break’.
You know, my thoughts also led to something else today. What would it be like if I couldn’t homeschool. If my husband died and I couldn’t manage with it all. Subhana’Allah, it really made me feel grateful that I have a husband who masha’Allah works to support his family, thus enabling me to educate my children. Alhamdulillah.