Last night, I was on a bit of a ‘downer’.I felt like I wasn’t giving my kids their rights, wondered how long I could do this Home Ed thing for, and just felt GUILTY as a mother. We all go through it, don’t we? I seem to be going through it every other day at the moment. Maybe its my hormones, I don’t know.
Called another home educating sister for advice and she was completely understanding as usual, mashaAllah! One of the first things she said was: “I really don’t think this is the time to be making any rash decisions, do you?” I laughed in response agreeing with her. 36 weeks pregnant is definitely not the time to be making life changing decisions. We discussed what it was that we wanted for our children, why we thought these things were important. And I guess by talking to her, I renewed my reasons in wanting to homeschool. A
Aside from the fact that I feel that the education system in the UK is failing our children academically and morally, I want my children to grow up as unique individuals. I don’t feel that they will get this in school. I want them to have unique passions and interests and not just merely follow the latest fad. I want my children to have a deep attachment to Allah (Swt). I want them to learn right and wrong from us. I’m not stating here that I am the best example for my children, as I have many flaws. But I feel that my husband and I are the best ‘first reference points’ for our children because I know what we believe and what we ourselves our aspiring to and what we want for our children. I want my children to have a very deep attachment to the Quran. I don’t believe that this can really occur after a 9-3 schedule at school. I want my children to grow up as good Muslims, not just ones who pray and fast. But Muslims who are REAL Muslims and you can see this in their every day interaction. I want my kids to look back as adults and recount wonderful memories of their time at home, learning, loving and living. I believe that the childhood we give to a child is the adult that they will become. But naturally this cannot come without the guidance of Allah.
And so my brief ‘I-can’t-do-this-I’m-going-to-put-them-into-school’ moment last night vanished and my intention was renewed once more.
And this very very beautiful article which I have just re read made me realise even more the importance of raising our children and the importance of home ed in my children’s lives. May Allah grant us all the tawfeeq to give our children what is best for them – dunya wa akhirah. Ameen.
Please do read the article – it is a superb-heart-felt read: