WARNING: This post is unfortunately not a very positive one.
I just have to be completely honest and I feel like I need to release some thoughts.
I feel like a really bad mother at the moment. I feel like everything is falling apart. I don’t know if I’m going about things in the right way. My second child is really driving me nuts! The little one is still waking up roughly every 2 hours. I have tried to be more patient with first son and have tried so many things with the little one to get him to sleep more at night. I feel exhausted and I just feel as though I’m not doing anything right.
I’m not down or depressed. Alhamdulillah. But just feel really really tired and I feel as though I’ve lost the barakah in everything. I feel like I’m heading for a burnout and just needed to vent my frustration.
Although we had a week off the week before last, we are on another break this week because I just need to sort my thoughts out and rethink a lot of things. Maybe this is all down to being exhausted. But there are some things which have been playing on my mind about the way I’ve been home educating.
You see, I’m the type of person who has to really feel secure in what I’m doing and at the moment I’m just not sure how I’ve been doing things has been the right way.
Probably none of this makes sense. And to be honest, I just needed to blog – a bit of self-therapy! Anyway, I’m sure I’ll be back to normal in a few days – maybe its just a few bad days. Or is it? Or is this a sign that things need to change? I don’t know.