Arrived back a few days ago – pushed myself a bit too hard by going to an eid party on Sunday – paid for it on Monday! What can I say except that it really was a journey of a lifetime – emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically intense! And most certainly a test of one’s patience.
Kids are well and was beautiful being reunited with them. The sister who looked after them did a marvellous job mashaAllah. May Allah reward her abundantly. Ameen. R came back with a scrapbook of everything she had done whilst we were away which was so nice for me to see. And a real gingerbread house covered with sweets that she made (which I’m nibbling at).
It was a pleasure meeting one of my silent readers who resides in Madina. You’re probably reading this my dear sister – was an honour to meet you and your beautiful girls mashaAllah.
Was also wonderful to share my hajj journey with another silent reader who happened to be in the same Hajj group as myself! We sat down next to each other in Jeddah airport and she asked me if I was Umm Raiyaan. SubhanaAllah, pure qadr. I know you’re probably reading this sis – I keep remembering our chain and how we tried to cut through (jogging) the sa’ee on 10th Dhul Hijjah. My love to your Mum.
Feeling quite sad to be back. I really feel I found Allah again during Hajj. I feel I have really seen myself for who I am – warts and all! And I feel like Allah has given me an opportunity to change who I am and work on my weaknesses. It is amazing how we get sucked into the monotony of routines and lose our connection with Allah despite the fact that we think we have a strong connection with Him. Even our bond with our children are a distraction away from Him as He has said in the Quran that children are a test for us. The most supreme relationship must always be between us and Allah (Swt).
I pray that all of you who have not been are able to go. And as I keep telling everyone, don’t worry about the money or who will look after the children. If you knew how we managed to get there you would be shocked – Allah provides and He facilitates as long as we want something bad enough. May Allah take you all there and may He takes us back there again – my heart longs for the blessed lands at the blessed times…